Come ye Disconsolate

Oh thank you lovely friends and family for being so kind to me.

I am sure it is partly ridiculous to splay out my feelings on the internet in writing but for some reason it is very cathartic and helpful for me.

Mostly because of the kind response of people in reaction to my pain.

I wish we could all go around wearing signs across our chests of how we are really doing. We send off cues but they are often hard to interpret and we misread each other so often. It would be nice if we could just have signs saying such things as "I feel miserable" or "I've had a great day" or "I am hurting right now" or "I just need to be alone for a minute" or "I feel so productive today."

Then we could all respond in kind to each other and be more helpful than intuition sometimes allows.

I think that is why it helps me to write it out- so that can acknowledge what my sign would say without actually verbalizing the words.

I am feeling better. The sickness is on its way out the door, I have been sleeping and doing better self-care, we've received so much kindness and support and I have had people to listen and talk me through it. I am grateful to know that although I am on a roller coaster ride the downs won't last forever. They are not permanent anymore.

On Sunday we sang a song at church that I haven't heard very often. It is called "Come Ye Disconsolate" (click HERE to listen to this beautiful rendition). I couldn't even sing as my eyes filled with tears at the beautiful words that were a tender reminder of God's love for me, and for all of us, who at times feel cast down.

1. Come, ye disconsolate, where'er ye languish;
   Come to the mercy seat, fervently kneel.
   Here bring your wounded hearts; here tell your anguish.
   Earth has no sorrow that heav'n cannot heal.
2. Joy of the desolate, Light of the straying,
   Hope of the penitent, fadeless and pure!
   Here speaks the Comforter, tenderly saying,
   "Earth has no sorrow that heav'n cannot cure."
3. Here see the Bread of Life; see waters flowing
   Forth from the throne of God, pure from above.
   Come to the feast of love; come, ever knowing
   Earth has no sorrow but heav'n can remove.

I know that Jesus' love is real. He has compassion for our sorrow. He is filled with mercy and will alleviate our affliction. I believe with all of my heart that His grace overshadows all of the pain of this earthly existence and that in Him we can find true healing. He is, and always will be, the answer.