I can't believe school is almost back in session. This summer has been good.
We were gone a lot.
The kids and I went on a fabulous trip back east which I will write about soon. Lauren went to our school districts 5th grade outdoor camp and then for the 4th of July week we went to Cody, Wyoming for a Robertson family reunion. The girls attended Camp Kesem for a week, we went to Ellie's soccer tournament in Park City and then we have a Romney family reunion to finish off the summer.
In between our travels we have been able to host friends from Phoenix in our home, see extended family members, invite friends over for play dates, eat lots of delicious food, go to pools and Utah's theme park Lagoon, take a bike ride up the canyon and just enjoy the wonder of outdoor living.
And somehow in this process and with time I can feel myself coming back to life.
I can't fully explain it with words, but you can probably imagine the experience.
When your spouse passes away a literal part of your being dies also.
And it is terrible. And it is agonizing. And you feel lost. And nothing has meaning. And it seems like it will be that way forever.
I can't say that I am healed, but I can say that I do not feel totally dead anymore.
And for that I am both amazed and grateful.
I tore this image out of the Ensign magazine last October.
It had great meaning for me during such a painful and dark time.
I hung it near my bed and looked to it for hope.
And for the first time I can feel inside what the image is depicting- life springing up even in the midst of charred remains.
That little sapling is me.
10 comments:
This post made me soooo happy! I am glad you are growing and finding strength!
We sure miss seeing you, we don't have any Utah trips planned yet.
I love that pic and quote from the ensign. So happy to hear your grief sad pain is easing a bit. Love you!
Love you dear little sapling.
Jordan, the imagery of the sapling is perfect. Thanks for sharing.
I'm glad you were able to have a full summer and enjoy the company of so many. Love you Jord and grateful for this sense of new life.❤️
Love that picture!
Dear Jord: I think that you are more than a little sapling. When I think of all you and Jake have gone through, and all the kids have gone through, and that your're still there slugging it out, it makes me think you're a giant oak. In any event, you are so much more than a little sapling.
vfr
Jordan that is so beautiful. I think about you often. Love,Marie
Oh I just love you!
You're an inspiration!
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