News: facts.
Jacob is scheduled for an EEG on February 10, followed by a neurology consultation and neurosurgery consultation on February 12.
Following those consultations they will schedule the biopsy to remove some tissue so that we know exactly what we're dealing with.
Our parents went home this morning. My mom is getting a knee replacement next Thursday, and Jacob's parents are going to get things settled around their home before they return before the consultations.
Our children know that Jake has something in his brain that shouldn't be there, and that it could be cancerous. My Mom battled breast cancer last year so they have some sense of what cancer entails. They are positive and stronger than we give them credit for.
Jacob's initial symptoms have all but gone and he feels normal. In fact, were it not for the MRI, you wouldn't know that anything is wrong with him. The doctors do not want him working until after the biopsy so he'll be home for the time being.
News: feelings.
The waiting continues. We've never been good at waiting, because we are both people who like to have a plan, so it looks like this is a lesson we get to learn.
We are both on an emotional/physical/spiritual/intellectual roller coaster or sorts.
Disbelief, fear, panic, calm, peace, determination, hope, and fight seem to cycle through us in intervals as we try and wrap our minds around this.
I can tell you personally, when he called on Friday afternoon saying he didn't feel well and asking me to pick him up from work, the last thing running through my mind was that 8 hours later we'd be told Jake has a brain lesion that is possibly carcinogenic.
It is something you can't anticipate or be prepared for.
We are trying not to go through scenarios without facts.
Really hard.
Trying not to imagine possibilities.
Either good or bad.
Really trying.
Sometimes succeeding.
Sometimes not.
Jacob says that he feels a heightened sense of appreciation for everyday things. He has noticed things that he hadn't before and feels like he can't take anything for granted.
Living one day at a time. I guess that's what you call it. It is an expression that has taken on new meaning for us.
News: faith.
Two things I know.
First, we are surviving on the prayers, fasting and faith of you, our family and friends.
I know that your prayers in Jacob's behalf are literally carrying us.
The more people aware of him, the more prayers offered, the better.
Second, there is One who knows the road we are walking and who has been with us every step of the way.
I am so grateful for Jesus, His atonement, His love and the compassion we feel from Him.
We all have challenges, and in this one, for us, the Savior's healing, calming, and comforting power is making all the difference.
5 comments:
Thanks for the update Jord- I can imagine how hard is it to wait to find out what you're dealing with- 2 weeks seems like forever. Is his work being good about this time off? Hopefully, you can feel more calm than fear and can just enjoy this time you have with him home. Thinking of and praying for you guys. Love you.
Yes thank you for the update. You are in our prayers too. I know what its like to wait for news and its not fun... Hang in there!
Tears! We've been thinking about you guys a lot & your family is in our prayers. Love you Robertson Family!
It sounds like you have a good support system. We love you. We can appreciate your experience. Especially your love and concern for your children. We will continue to pay for you. This is something that definately gives life perspective. We love you.
We love you, Jord and Jake, more than we can say. We take comfort in your faith, in your strength, and in your love for the Lord. He does give strength, peace, and comfort, and you have certainly felt all of those. Thanks for the post, which is inspiring and helps all of us move forward with faith.
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